Frustration and Depression Hand in Hand
It's now been nearly two weeks since I've run and the same since I've biked or swam on a normal schedule because of the injury. The greatest feeling I get are those two seconds after I wake up just before my foot hits the floor where I have hope that its all gone only to find my foot still hurts like hell the second it touches down. This for the most part especially these last few days is killing my motiviation to do anything but sulk. The PT said that most likely the original doc was right about a fracture in the foot and that it can take a little while to heal but right now it seems to hurt as bad or worse than when it started last week.
I am one of those I am invincible never get injured types. Played sports most my life and never had an injury. I remember the first time I read TTB and Friel saying something about triathletes will lose x amount of weeks due to illness and injury a year. Im thinking Illness?! Injury?! not me. Damn it if it didn't happen to me.
I had a great outlook for 2005 had been doing everything right getting all my workouts in felt strong. Cloud 9. !$#@Q$. I cut out and hung up at work a Saucony ad from Triathlete Magazine that has a race number "7" and reads "Because 7 weeks of not running due to injury is the true definition of hell". First time I saw that ad I paid no attention to it. Saw it last weekend and it hit home.
Add to this a good friend of mine at work was "let go" the day before yesterday in what I feel was a poor company decision. Im going to end up on Paxil by the end of the week. [I only make this joke as I had been on Paxil previously for anxiety problems something I think triathlon saves me from Im not insensitive to those who need or use Paxil =) ]
Im going to make it my goal for the time being to figure out a cycling and swimming schedule as running is my strongest event. Im sure it will come back. Maybe this is my bodies way of making me FINALLY become a better cyclist. Assuming neither of these bother the knee or foot obviously. !$#@Q$.
I am one of those I am invincible never get injured types. Played sports most my life and never had an injury. I remember the first time I read TTB and Friel saying something about triathletes will lose x amount of weeks due to illness and injury a year. Im thinking Illness?! Injury?! not me. Damn it if it didn't happen to me.
I had a great outlook for 2005 had been doing everything right getting all my workouts in felt strong. Cloud 9. !$#@Q$. I cut out and hung up at work a Saucony ad from Triathlete Magazine that has a race number "7" and reads "Because 7 weeks of not running due to injury is the true definition of hell". First time I saw that ad I paid no attention to it. Saw it last weekend and it hit home.
Add to this a good friend of mine at work was "let go" the day before yesterday in what I feel was a poor company decision. Im going to end up on Paxil by the end of the week. [I only make this joke as I had been on Paxil previously for anxiety problems something I think triathlon saves me from Im not insensitive to those who need or use Paxil =) ]
Im going to make it my goal for the time being to figure out a cycling and swimming schedule as running is my strongest event. Im sure it will come back. Maybe this is my bodies way of making me FINALLY become a better cyclist. Assuming neither of these bother the knee or foot obviously. !$#@Q$.
posted by Migofast at
7:37 AM
2 Comments:
Sean,
Hang in there. I can feel your pain. The good thing about triathlon is that there are always other things to work on. I used to be "just" a runner and would inevitably get hurt over training or something and would have to take some time off. I feel sorry for people who had to be around me during that time!
Last year I hust my back and couldn't run OR bike, but was able to lift some weights and spend a lot of time in the pool. The swim has always been my weakest event and although it still is I don't suck nearly as bad as I did.
Good luck.
Michael
Thanks for the nice words. Sounds like your problems were much greater than mine in relation to participation in tri.
I know what you mean about people being around you. I've had to ask my wife to be patient with me as Ive just been in a terrible mood.
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